oh hey

[foxgut]

Just helping the OP out with reaching the conclusion that most of us here are more messed up than they are, so a little anxiety's no biggie

I do understand that addictions are a problem, and I'm sure you do have good intentions in your words. Though saying anxiety is no biggie compared to an addiction is kind of a problem. Just because they're both different doesn't mean one is better/worse than the other. They're both terrible.
Both are problems, different ones. No reason to compare and argue over which is worse.

Like I said though, I do understand you have good intentions!

@OP: Alprazolam my friend, alprazolam...

Honestly, I'd love to take Alprazolam, but my doctor recommended therapy, so... I'm actually just going to give that a try.

[foxgut]

Nice to meet you. Why u have communication trouble?

Hi!!

I have anxiety... So it's difficult to talk to people. I get really hesitant about posting/saying anything anywhere because I worry what people will say about me.

I also have intrusive thoughts. so when people say mean things to me I get really angry. and w/o thinking I say stupid mean stuff back. I don't mean to though. that's kind of when the anxiety hits hard too.

0.o ! I have same problem. I think it took me about 12 hours to click ''submit'' when i created my video thread here. I had to rewrite it several times, cause the cloudflare would delete it every 10 minutes... Then I had all those scenarios in my head of people being mean and the thread deteriorating into a flame WAR.

To my relief, 99% of the people paid no attention to it whatsoever, and those who did were great support (its mostly always what happens...I just cant rationalize it before getting anxious).

@Simtex, I prefer smoking/vaping...

!!! yes!! same thoughts, same actions! I've been sitting here, fixing the thread post and all that before hitting submit-- I was super hesitant to press it. I was worried people might talk crap or think mean things. D:

I'm so glad you got support for your video! That makes me very happy.
It happens. Anxiety just makes you think about the best case scenario and worst case scenario, rather than what's most likely going to happen.

[Dresden]

!!! yes!! same thoughts, same actions! I've been sitting here, fixing the thread post and all that before hitting submit-- I was super hesitant to press it. I was worried people might talk crap or think mean things. D:

I'm so glad you got support for your video! That makes me very happy.
It happens. Anxiety just makes you think about the best case scenario and worst case scenario, rather than what's most likely going to happen.

There is nothing wrong with the way you think, you are completely normal.

The problem is that you are too aware of the realities of social interaction but you are not strong enough (in the way you would need to be) to deal with it fully.

I've never had your problems, i might have had them but i grew up in an extremely psychotic and physically violent place but i developed to suit my enviroment perfectly and overcame it, i balance calm reasonable politeness with sheer merciless brutality and i don't have any real problems anymore, you just need to develop what strengths you already have, consider your own, charismatic vulnerability is clearly one of them.

[Pridebane]

My name is larry and im sexually attracted to kettles

[foxgut]

That's cause we all got distracted with LARPing jokes and French Fries...

Welcome! to the forums at least... Glad to have you, sad that you are forced to communicate here instead of via WAR...

Sorry to hear about the Anxiety. It's a serious issue, just gotta take baby-steps, and don't every worry about having to just say "No More" and walk away for a bit.

p.s. Choking One's Self is awesome! But it's hard to get away with while at work... Hence Drugs!

Hiya!

I don't feel forced! More like I wanted to do it. It's okay though, thought I'd try coming out of my shell a little bit.
It really is and it's okay... I'm trying baby steps! I might try out therapy, so hopefully that'll help.

[timestep1]

<Stands UP> Hi I am Moldred... long time listener first time caller.. oh, wait wrong group.. I am an addict... I am addicted to Bunnies, Hamsters, Sex, Lube, and video Games... oh and not in that order. I dropped my ice cream and now all I have is the cone, so I think I will sit back down and twitch awhile...

[foxgut]

!!! yes!! same thoughts, same actions! I've been sitting here, fixing the thread post and all that before hitting submit-- I was super hesitant to press it. I was worried people might talk crap or think mean things. D:

I'm so glad you got support for your video! That makes me very happy.
It happens. Anxiety just makes you think about the best case scenario and worst case scenario, rather than what's most likely going to happen.

There is nothing wrong with the way you think, you are completely normal.

The problem is that you are too aware of the realities of social interaction but you are not strong enough (in the way you would need to be) to deal with it fully.

I've never had your problems, i might have had them but i grew up in an extremely psychotic and physically violent place but i developed to suit my enviroment perfectly and overcame it, i balance calm reasonable politeness with sheer merciless brutality and i don't have any real problems anymore, you just need to develop what strengths you already have, consider your own, charismatic vulnerability is clearly one of them.

Ah yes, that's true.. I'm not strong for any social interaction... Thinking about it makes me tear up a bit hehe..

Well if you lived in an environment like that, you might've had some anxiety or something before! I've lived with an abusive person for a long while and all I got was bpd. I'm glad you're okay now, and overcame that harsh environment.
I could try that... though tbh, I'm not even sure how vulnerability could be a strength.

[foxgut]

My name is larry and im sexually attracted to kettles

Hello Larry! Kettles are pretty cool. Do you own any?

<Stands UP> Hi I am Moldred... long time listener first time caller.. oh, wait wrong group.. I am an addict... I am addicted to Bunnies, Hamsters, Sex, Lube, and video Games... oh and not in that order. I dropped my ice cream and now all I have is the cone, so I think I will sit back down and twitch awhile...

Haha, hi Moldred. Do you have any pet bunnies and/or hamsters? And what kind of video games do you like?

I'm not gonna bother asking about the other two hehe

[Corynowl]

hi! i'm sara[or a bunch of different names to encompass the multitude of characters i have]. i know how it is to have anxiety or at least a similar mentality and it sucks a lot.

..i don't think i've ever posted on the forum before haha

i haven't joined a guild yet on any of my characters and i either play solo or play with my dad. it's pretty hard for me to join a public group unless someone invites me or it's for orvr/keep sieges
but maybe i'll see you in the game some time! even if we never interact

i've played MMOs for as long as i can remember and i definitely play a good variety of games. unfortunately this variety makes it so that i spend my time across multiple games rather than gitting gud at one. i also draw, read, and write among other activities

also i've spent way too long on typing this so i'll just post now

[timestep1]

Foxgut:

I don't have either any more... but as for games... Well I am an old school gamer... I started with MUDDS in the late 80's, Then in the 90's I played Everquest, then SWG (Star Wars Galaxy), then WOW and so on... I have played so many games including WAR when it originally realeased, Wildstar, ArchAge, SWOTOR, Black Dessert... So mostly MMORPGS but I also have a collection other steam games.. <DVS>Moldred.... Been a Moldred since 1988... but I also will use the names Mawi (MawiLynn) and Manoa.. That is my gaming predigree.